Why I’m stressed

So my story wakes me up in the morning and pushes me to my computer. Today it got me up at 3am. 😦   (And I ‘m just rewriting! Maybe that’s why…. Characters want me to move on with the actual story that is still unfinished..just a guess..anyway..)

That is not why I’m stressed ( I just thought I would mention it). What stresses me about writing is the ‘what now’ once  I have am finished my story. Stressing me to the point that I started to think maybe this should be my last novel.

At least this was what I thought until wise words came my way telling me its my first story. My first experience as a writer. And as such it will cause me the most apprehension. (Yes I had already thought of this, but it just registered differently coming from another’s mouth.)

SO…

I am hoping that once I have gone from  A to Z   with this story  I  won’t feel like I am blindly feeling my way in this world of writing for the next one.

Emphasis on hoping.

Back to my story..

Rewriting is actually taking me longer then the first draft. Part one was originally 20000 words and I am already there and still haven’t reached the climax….And then I have to rewrite part two.

It may be a while before I start writing the last part. Which I am also a bit apprehensive about. I want it to be the last part so I can move on to another step, closer to having others read it.  But I am afraid my character will refuse to grow up and push for a sixth part in order to get comfortable with his new role.  Or I will just have a ridiculously long 5th part, a novel in itself..

Tired. Hoping my brain will let me sleep to a reasonable time tomorrow, 7 am would be nice.

 

 

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